After covering a series of bleak assignments – terrorist
attacks in Paris, the rise of the European extreme right, sex slavery in Spain
– the French-American photojournalist and videographer Stefania Rousselle was
mired in pessimism and despair. “My heart was broken,” she said. “I didn’t
believe in love anymore.”
In 2017, to find joy once more, she decided to go on a roadtrip across France, asking random strangers to share their most defining and
life-changing love stories with her.
“I named my cabin ‘The Villa of the Ones Deprived of Love’
because I was the least favorite child in my family. It used to be that in
farmers’ families, there were maybe six children. They would send the one they
loved the least out into the mountains to herd sheep. And that was my case.
They had very obvious preferences – especially Mom. But moms do what they can.
“How do you survive that? First, you have a terrible
adolescence. It was endless. I was in pain. I was shy. It was not a place for
teenagers. I would come back to the village once a week, get some bread and go
back to the mountain with my donkey. I would miss everything: the balls, all
the activities.
“But then you adapt. And I was happy. I have dedicated my
whole life to the sheep. And I don’t regret it at all.
“I am not mad at my parents.
“I have a daughter. She is 22. Until she turned 14, it was
wonderful. Then, for some reason I can’t explain, she rejected me. We haven’t
spoken in 10 years. I am really disappointed.
“I don’t like humans. They are twisted. When I see what they
are capable of, I am ashamed. I would have rather been a dog. That is why I
work with animals. And I love waking up every morning.
“I am with Katia now. She is from Paris. She is a good
person. I met her when she was 17 and I was 25. She was my employee. She loved
me, but it wasn’t reciprocal. I was with someone else at the time. And we spent
30 years without seeing each other. But we met again and we got married 10
years ago. I never got married with the others. Why? Because they didn’t ask.
She just had an operation, so she is in Paris, resting. Do I love her? I don’t
know. Love is a weird word. I care about Katia. That must be love. She cares
about me too – a bit too much.
“She is the one I should have kept when I was young, because
we could have done things together. But I was too stupid at 25. We could have
had babies together. I am about to retire but there is no one to replace me. If
I had had kids with Katia, one of them could have taken over and I could have
retired.
“I am going to have to sell my flock. I haven’t found anyone
to replace me.”
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